I have been spelling quadriplegic this way for 41/2 yrs. That is why most of you are having a hard time finding my blog. Yes I am retarded. One of our many lovely creditors just phoned me and asked what type of bankruptcy are You filing? I said: I think I am filing chapter 12. He said, " there is only chapter 7 and 13."

I really did a number on myself by hitting my head when I crashed and I popped way to many pills. I have chronic nerve pain from my injury but not as much pain as I led myself to believe. I thought, : the only way I'm going to be able to deal with this injury is to be high. It put me in a fog, in made me feel Good, And I didn't have to deal with the reality of being a quadriplegic. It was the only way I knew how to cope at the time. I Have been clean now for 10 week's with a few slip ups. It doesn't sound as bad when you say it that way. when you have an unhealthy addiction you're supposed to substitute it for a healthy activity . I always new I should try bloging but never had the desire until now. it has brought me so much happiness and peace. I cant believe that people care about what I have to say.

On a lighter subject I'm going to tell you another funny story about, guess who? Jake! Like I have said before, Jake is a softy, to put it nicely. He will not go into the developed basements where the 3 older kids stay. I would go with him but we don't have an elevator. He also won't go into the garage alone to get me my diet coke's. So he prefers to use Which ever toilet is closest to whomever is in the house. My bedroom and bathroom are open to each other so this one night Jake runs into my bedroom and says, " I need to use the bathroom, I'll be really quick, it should only be one." After he was done he said you, " oh, it was 2 poops."

I enjoy my kids so much. I feel so blessed to have had them all before my accident.

JAKE AND I

During dinner Seth and Calvin were talking about spooning girls. Great table talk eh. There is not much in this family that we don't talk about. Back to the story, Jake lifted up a spoon full of spaghetti and said, "Im spooning this much!"

Rylee was at her High School Football game on friday and when she went to use the public restroom she met a friendly girl who was handicapped. The girl asked Rylee what team she was cheering for and Rylee answered her. She kept talking to Rylee while Rylee went into the bathroom stall and after a few minutes Rylee looked up and saw her eye peeking threw the crack in the door frame. Rylee stopped responding to her questions and eventually she got the hint that Rylee wanted some privacy while using the potty. When Rylee came out of the stall the cute little girl was pulling toilet paper off the bottom of her shoe. She said to Rylee, "this always happens to me."

RYLEE and I

Be careful what you wish for

Before my accident I had big muscular legs. My husband has long thin legs and I envied them. I said, wouldn't that be awesome if we could trade legs." Yay! I have them now.

Calvin the Thumper

Calvin is my oldest son, he is 14. He is tender hearted and affectionate. He is also very Intelligent and a great athlete. I love his confidence, I wish I had more of it. Calvin was there when I fell and broke my neck. The picture below is of him and his sister Rylee. They were 10 and 12 when I became a quadriplegic.

Calvin and Rylee were nerds for Halloween.

The other morning I woke up to my 3 little kids sleeping in bed with me. They tend to do that when their dad works at the station. Out of all 4 of us who slept in that bed it was me who wet the bed. Yes thats right I wet the bed, thats what happens when I get bad bladder infections. You just have to laugh about it especially because it should have been one of the kids wetting my bed but no it was the mom.

Lance and Jake fight all the time. Lance instigates and wins almost every fight. He's the one on the top, you know the one with the fangs. The other morning he hurt Jake pretty bad so I sent him to his room. After Jake stopped crying he yelled out to Lance, "Lance your going to be in your room for 27 seconds."

I was reading my blog to Rylee about Jake being a super freak and he over heard me say, "where has my baby precious gone?" He got mad and said, "Mom I'm still your princess."

You Just Have To Laugh About It